I’ll be the first to admit that I’ve had a bumpy learning curve trying to figure out how to synchronize my web experience and love for design with the hectic, fickle and fast-paced world of Web 2.0 startups, applications, widgets and fads. It seems like every time I turn around there is some modified (and sometimes pretty darn close) implementation of an idea that’s floated around in my head. No doubt there are millions of people who have experienced this. If your employ is in the realm of internet based services (like me) the probability you have experienced this equally frustrating and encouraging sensation upon discovery of a new site that resembles one of “your” ideas likely increases dramatically.
(FYI - “encouraging” above refers to the “at least my ideas are somewhat on point” moment that usually occurs when you see a similar implementation of your idea.)
Toss in the dangling carrot(s) of huge buyouts, instant fame, industry recognition and ridiculous valuations and you’ve got a volatile mix of emotions, entrepreneurial passion, creative ingenuity and perhaps enough self-confidence to overcome all the doubts and fears just enough to get a “beta” launch up and running.
I’ve gone down this road 2 times. First, back in 2004, while I was a student at UNM I put together a site called uFile.org which was a basic online file management system designed to help me organize all my crappy school papers and assignments. It worked pretty well for my purposes and I soon began to tell a few friends about it. Within a few months of launch 125 people had signed up and were using the site periodically. Most were from UNM, however, towards the end about two dozen people registered with .ca email addresses. Interesting Canadians. Anyway, I say “towards the end” because I hired an acquaintance to do some server maintenance and in the process of updating Apache he crashed the server and everything was deleted. I was pissed. And I got even more panicky.
So I dove right into the next idea I had, the foundation of which was “improving traditional business directories” - you know like YellowPages, etc. To make a long story short, that idea went from ABQsearch.com to whoswhoinabq.com to clickbricks.com each time with me initiating ill-advised “gun jumping” to get to the “next level”. Idiota. In the end, my focus was on growing so fast and chasing the dangling carrots with such dedication that I lost all joy, purpose and direction and completely forgot what I had set out to do. When it didn’t grow as fast as I wanted it to I became discouraged and gave up on it.
Well, I’m getting older, I’m maturing, the dust from my rush to the Web 2.0 promised land (what that even means, I have no idea) has settled. I’m no longer nervous or worried or panicky. Much of this has to do with heart transformation issues but pragmatically speaking I’m just a single dude, with a wife, three children (with a fourth on the way), a full-time job, no VC backing and no development team. So I’m going to stop taking myself so seriously. I’m also done putting self-imposed pressure on my ideas. I’m also done worrying about what other people are doing.
So say hello to happier and less stressful times and blinders and goodbye to the fourth post of today. Wow, this blogging thing is starting to grow on me. I never would have thunk it.